Today, I created a new blog. It’s still on WordPress, and it’s called “the name is cloie”. I made a new blog because I want to start anew. This blog will still exist, but I won’t be posting here anymore. If you want to keep up with me, follow my new blog (click here!)


Farewell, Siomai. This time, it’s for real.


Chopped and Colored

Last Sunday, I chopped off eight to ten inches of my hair. My head felt so heavy carrying so much hair. So I decided to cut off my hair.


I also got tired of my brown/black locks, so I asked my mom if I can dye my hair burgundy. She said yes.


Due to poor lighting, you can’t see very well that it turned out to be red, WHICH I LOVE!


They say that having a makeover signifies a new beginning. Well, it is true for me. Since I filed for another leave of absence, I want to spend my time discovering my potentials outside the academic world. Also, I have resorted into burying all my burdens along with my cut hair…literally burying them. I’ll post about it soon. For now, I’m happy with my new hair, and I’m happy for my fresh start.

To My Little Sister

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Dearest Anonymous MCHS Yellow ’16 student who “asked” me on Ask.fm,

Hello! How are ya? I hope MCHS is treating you well. Well, if you’re stressed, just remember that all the stress will be worth it. And you’ll miss high school a lot!

I want to thank you for reading my blog! You see, I can monitor my site views, so I know how many people were bored or in need of someone to relate to. This is not the first time that my blog was praised by people who I don’t know, but your “confession” melts my heart with joy. I never knew how much impact my blog had on other people. So, thank you for reading my blog even if I write about super shallow things.

Life’s a rock, really. It’s full of ups and downs. I have no clue if you were required to read Nectar in a Sieve by Kamala Markandaya back in sophomore year, but that book pretty much shows how real life is. If you haven’t read that book, consider reading it. In my 18 years of existence, I learned that life will never be fair, and that life is full of changes. I learned that boulders, big or small, will always block my way. The thing is, I have never absorbed how to wreck those boulders without breaking down first. But I realized that it’s okay to cry and be broken. When you’re broken, you realize how long you’ve been whole – if you were ever whole. When you’re broken, you know what would make you whole. When you’re broken, you’ll know who your real friends are. When you’re broken, you’ll know what you want and what you need, and you can always do whatever it takes to get what you want or need.

There’s a beauty in feeling down, and I hope that you realize and appreciate that. Life is very beautiful and unpredictable. Just remember that whenever you’re down, there will always be happiness after. Continue to fight, ha?

And before I forget: I only have one thing that I wish you would do. I wrote about my attempt to commit suicide, right? Okay, do not ever attempt to kill yourself. Why? One, physical pain. Second, you die whenever you have a problem. But what happens? You resurrect after, and you live. When you die physically, Lord know when you’ll resurrect. And third, what if no one stops you? If no one stops you, you’ll die sad. Don’t you want to die happy? Die happy, okay? Never give up on yourself.

Again, that you for letting me know that I inspire you in some way. You inspire me to write better. 🙂 I’m a Facebook message/tweet/question away, little sister! I hope to hear from you soon! Thank you very much!


Ate Cloie

As If We Never Said Goodbye

Last January 24, I said that I will stop blogging that this blog site… Well, I will have to break my word.


What was my reason for blogging in a new blog? I wanted to move on, but I didn’t feel at home blogging there. I wasn’t at home…and I only had two posts in that blog! I guess I’ll just keep that blog for future use…maybe when I reach college?

Yeah… Gosh I had many posts in my head for the past month and I feel bad for not posting them! But do not fret! 😀

It’s so good to be back, Siomai. It’s as if we never said goodbye.