What If I’m Not A Fighting Maroon?

There are nights when I wonder about what my life would be like if I accepted the challenge to be an Atenean or a Thomasian. Tonight is one of those nights.

Hey, being a Fighting Maroon is a privilege, but I can’t help but imagine life in other schools. So in this blog post, I will weigh the pros and cons of studying in Ateneo and UST.

What would my life be like if I studied in the Ateneo De Manila University? Well, based on my friends’ stories, I would probably go through:

  • Katipunan traffic (since kindergarten, man)
  • tough Math (THE HORROR);
  • tough English and Literature;
  • a lot of org(s) activities;
  • the struggle of getting my QPI at 3 or above;
  • wearing my ID even if I’m not in the campus;
  • short walks when classroom hoping;
  • free cuts because of a holy mass;
  • studying AB Communications to be a teacher
  • NSTP on Saturdays; and
  • having a bloc (and all issues concerning clingy or irritating blocmates) until sophomore year.

No doubt, Ateneo is a great school. It’ll probably help me transition from a pampered high school student to a confident young adult. The problem is, Ateneo’s tuition is…demanding. It’s like taking two years in my high school for one academic year in ADMU. Sure, there are scholarships, but my family’s background may be a bit of a barrier for me to get a scholarship. My grades aren’t enough for any academic scholarship. So finances is one reason why I’m not attending college at Ateneo. Another reason is that it’s not my dream school. If I had to choose from the three schools that I passed, I won’t choose Ateneo simply because it’s not my dream school. Period.

Now, what would my life be like if I studied in the oldest extant university in Asia, the University of Santo Tomas? Well, based on the stories of my mom’s friends (some are UST alumnae and some have children who studied in the university) and not my friends (because I have no close friend in UST), I would probably go through:

  • traffic everywhere going everywhere;
  • “swimming” just to get out of school;
  • countless ghost stories;
  • uniforms;
  • seeing the same faces until I graduate; and
  • life in my original dream university in my dream course (secondary education).

UST is still part of the Big Four (UP, ADMU, DLSU, UST), but its students are often underestimated when applying for jobs where there are many competitors from the other three schools mentioned above. But I didn’t consider that when I chose to abandon my UST dream. What I considered is the fact that España Boulevard in the city of Manila is far from my house in Quezon City. No doubt, Ateneo and UP are closer to home. I was practical. Besides, I can always shift from BA Journalism to B Secondary Education once I get into UP. And hello, many tried to get into UP but failed. I succeeded, so why not take the opportunity? So I abandoned my dream of being a UST Tiger, and chose to be a Fighting Maroon.

I mentioned what would probably happen if I studied in other schools, but one thing is not for sure: would I be on a leave of absence for a whole academic year if I went to either of the two schools? Well, I guess not. Why? I feel like I would have more interaction with people in both schools. I bet there is pressure in getting into organizations, but I guess applying for orgs isn’t as tough as it is in UP. I can still be an activist in my own way in either of the schools. My life could have been better if I became a Blue Eagle or a Growling Tiger.

Every time I filed for an LOA, my mom would tell me that she thinks that not entering UP would have made my life easier. But I guess God has a plan for me in UP. I just don’t know what it is yet, but I know UP will make me a better and stronger person. Besides, I don’t need to graduate on time. I need to take my time.

Change of Plans

I am no longer transferring schools. I’m staying in UP for now. I hope you guys who expressed “concern” for me are happy. But to make things clear, I didn’t do this to please anyone. I did this because I am not able to transfer schools this coming semester. I am already bored at home, and I want to go to school already. I also consider the incident of not being able to transfer a sign for me to stay in UP.

Well, UP, here I go.

LOA – Love: Over and Away

Exactly a week ago, I filed for a leave of absence (LOA). I was tired of going to school, and the semester just started.

I think I’ve had enough with this university. I don’t feel like I am meant to be here. I feel like I don’t belong here. I think I have to move away.

I know that I’m wasting my opportunity to graduate from the top university in the country, but hey, I lived my dream of being an Iskolar ng Bayan, even for just one semester. I can still serve my country even if I graduate from another college. But for now, I have to be happy.

I filed for an LOA for one semester, even if I am already enrolled. I feel like I need more time to rest and to get my shit together. You see, I’m contemplating to transfer schools. I plan to go back to my Alma Mater. I know that my plan sucks, but I think that’s for the best.

Yes, I wasted my parents’ money, but I did not intend to do that. And yes, they understand what I’m going through. Now, I’ll pay them back. Don’t worry, people who think I’m selfish.

I just want to clear my head now.

Goals

Coming into the state university last August, I had no goals except to graduate on time. Now that I found out that I was a inch close to being a college scholar (equivalet to other school’s inclusion in the dean’s list), I suddenly had goals in mind for 2015. Well, isn’t that good? 😀

I now have different goals for different areas in my life. I hope that by the end of the semester and of the year, I have reached my goals!

As a student of the state university and citizen of the Philippines:
-join cause-oriented orgs, like Red Cross Youth and any teaching org
-give back to the nation in any way
     ▪Do well in my studies…be a college/university scholar! That’s the least I can do to make the taxpayers and my parents’ money spent on my education worth it.
     ▪have a stand!

As a member of my family:
-get to know my family members as individuals

As a friend:
-make new friends!
-spend more time with friends outside the university

As a girlfriend:
-maintain out healthy relationship
-try out new activities together

As an individual:
-LOSE WEIGHT! Get back to my pre-surgery body.
-develop deep spirituality

I’m sharing my goals so that when I get off the track, someone can remind me. Well, I’m pretty hyped now. Can’t wait for the semester to start! 😀